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Saturday, April 09, 2005


Today has been one fine day. to start off the relatively wonderful day, i went jamming with my friends at JE. it've been rather productive cos we've managed to play many songs and have some pinch of creativity and flavour stirred up during our freestyling session, a stupendous achievement indeed. not bad for an ameteur band eh, especially me. thats all ba. on the way hm, there was this sturdy young (not that young though) man sitting beside me in the train. he saw this old lady who stood posturing in front of both of us, hoping that both of us would give up our seats for her, one for her flaccid body structure, the other for her great ego. before i could react to my self-consciousness, he made the move before me and non-hesitantly gave up his seat to her. im really touched by his act of civility. after all, it is these kind of pple that make the world a more pleasant place to live in. to the young man (not so young argh!), if u r reading this (which i dunno how is that possible), a big thank you on that old lady's behalf. hmm... this weekend shd be quite relaxing i guess cos there isn't much work to do. but i seriously doubt this will be the same following next week onwards.

Returned home early after pool (the table with balls and cue sticks, not the depression structure with chlorinefied water and swimming trunks) and dinner with Mel. at hm, i tried to convert a metal song ( Fade to Black by Metallica) onto piano and it sound really convincing! i think im really edited, oops i mean addicted to the song. btw, i really hate economics (the lesson, not the subject). every single economics class very much seem like a stultifying brain exercise to me. after every lesson, my brain worked alittle less efficient. what to do?

Other than today, i only have one sentence to sum up my feelings and thoughts: i wholeheartedly, devotedly appreciate and love my friends, family and God. this sentence alone speaks volume abt what is going through my mind right now. i have been inadequate in expressing my gratitude to them, therefore i would like to grasp this opportunity to do so. i'm never a perfect person, neither am i perfectly flawed. i'm far from being the ideal person to befriend with, yet i have my friends who never turn me away. without them, i'm nothing, non existant. my life would be heavily obscured with clouds of unknown otherwise. they are the sunshine of my every day. Thank You


efijy rockeD* at 11:07 PM

Thursday, April 07, 2005


Fark i have not done my homework. i've done gp comprehension and geog drq. left with a bloody 25 mark geog essay! what a way to end off the day.

I've been thinking and reflecting upon my life. i should not be over demanding and have too high expectations in life. after all, i believe that real life begins after death, if anyone of u know what i mean. that means, we r living a sort of pre-life period. we shd learn to look beyond our lives really. have anyone of us thought abt where we will go or what we will become after we die? do we just live and die? then what's the purpose of living? to have a taste of Earth? yes, we mug really hard for our A levels, cry when we receive disappointing results, cheer with tears of joy when we topped our friends, pursue the career of our dreams, woo the girl/guy that we liked, target our first one million to be earned... all of which for what purpose has it installed?

We should shake up our complacencies by looking at all the moral and political urgencies, the life & death dilemmas at other countries which we seldom, if not, never face at home. we should treasure our lives. i really wanna tell the world that even the most downcast homo sapiens are worth living. only by treasuring our lives would we find the arcane mysteries and languages of life. i'm not trying to bolster up people's confidence and appreciation in life. to those who sees suicide as an option, please take into consideration of what i've said, go read books on life and perhaps, afterlife.

Life is flaccid. i often thought about the numerous lives lost through disasters succh as the asian tsunami and the recent indonesian earthquake. what made them deserving of death? what right have they to part from their loved ones? many of them are struggling to live, why aren't they given the chance at all? then i started blaming whoever i can think of - mother nature, God etc. but now as i look back again, is death superior to life? what makes me so certain that death is the end of our lives? perhaps they have found the very essence of life that we have missed out. perhaps they are leaving for the better.


efijy rockeD* at 11:55 PM

Sunday, April 03, 2005


i'm having a bad mindblock as an aftermath of a slight fever. nothing much. i'm pretty much okay now. the past week have been a hard one. firstly, im blessed with an untolerable sorethroat. that was on thursday. when i woke up on friday, i thought i was okay. my throat felt much more soothing. or so it seemed. so i played soccer with my classmate in the middle of the rain. then came the undesirable. YES u've guessed it, flue found me. that lasted till saturday. for once i how wish i can find myself a parang and slice off that runny nose of mine. don't worry, i've practiced it for years, slicing pizzas and Long John Silver's fish & chips, guessing that it might be of good use in future. okay furtunately im not that stupid lah.

today, *cough.. cough!!

oh, and yesterday, Pope John Paul the second passed away peacefully. i swear i've never heard of his name before, till yesterday of course. aniwae, my utmost condolences for him.

im going alittle gaga!! society is metting out increasingly harsh consequences for those who underachieve. although i've mentioned it before last week, once again, FUCK Singapore's educational system. this is a hard game. but it'll give us a chance to prove our mettle i guess. so the government smartly came out with the brilliant idea of edusave as a propitatory relief for us uh? smart asses.

so people, lets wake up. there is no time to lose. its time to touchdown onto reality. make full use of what we've got left okay?


efijy rockeD* at 10:39 PM

TAKE A LOOK AT BAO LOON
Abao.. Abao.. He's not a boy, not yet a man... Birthday: 21st July, 1986. Favourite colour: Blue. Favourite animal: Dog. Dimensions: height 1.70m, weight 52kg, vital stats 32 32 32 stickinsect. Horoscope: Cancer. Plays hockey for his school Pioneer Junior College. Plays drum for his band Thunderstruck and Re-Cast. Loves his Family, Friends and God.
GREENDAY: BOULEVARD OF BROKEN DREAMS
THIS SONG IS DEDICATED TO MY FRIENDS, FAMILY AND GOD
SING ALONG WITH ME...

I walk a lonely road
The only one that I have ever known
Don't know where it goes
But it's home to me and I walk alone

I walk this empty street
On the Boulevard of Broken Dreams
Where the city sleeps
and I'm the only one and I walk alone

I walk alone
I walk alone

I walk alone
I walk a...

My shadow's the only one that walks beside me
My shallow heart's the only thing that's beating
Sometimes I wish someone out there will find me
'Til then I walk alone

Ah-ah, Ah-ah, Ah-ah, Aaah-ah,
Ah-ah, Ah-ah, Ah-ah

I'm walking down the line
That divides me somewhere in my mind
On the border line
Of the edge and where I walk alone

Read between the lines
What's fucked up and everything's alright
Check my vital signs
To know I'm still alive and I walk alone

I walk alone
I walk alone

I walk alone
I walk a...

My shadow's the only one that walks beside me
My shallow heart's the only thing that's beating
Sometimes I wish someone out there will find me
'Til then I walk alone

Ah-ah, Ah-ah, Ah-ah, Aaah-ah
Ah-ah, Ah-ah

I walk alone
I walk a...

I walk this empty street
On the Boulevard of Broken Dreams
Where the city sleeps
And I'm the only one and I walk a...

My shadow's the only one that walks beside me
My shallow heart's the only thing that's beating
Sometimes I wish someone out there will find me
'Til then I walk alone...

playing BOULEVARD OF BROKEN DREAMS
by Green Day =)

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TO DO LIST
  • Compose a song for my band
  • Play hockey
  • Go for the stupid NS medical checkup thingy
  • Study and mug hard
  • Express my utmost gratitude to my Family, Friends and God

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